Fly me to paris- or to some wonderland

Why...

2010-03-26T21:17:00.002+08:00

As I read all my old posts, a sense of amusement overcame me. How immature was I? Or is it only because of all the things I have experienced since last year? Today, I have finally expressed my disatisfaction with my section. How did things become like that? At the start, everything was wonderful, but now, everything is crumbling and falling apart, like an old and worn down building. What has caused my section to lose its shine and lustre? Is it me? My relationship with the whites is now strained, and things cannot be the same as before. Should I treat them like my juniors, friends or worse, enemies? Why do people always enjoy stabbing my heart with daggers and not caring even if i bleed to death? And I ask myself, was I wrong to scold them? Why do I have so many questions left unanswered? Why have I turned into a sad, sorrowful adult? I want back the old me, the me who is immature and ignorant. I want back me.

i dedicate my love for this week:)

2009-07-01T21:46:00.002+08:00

ah, i officially love this week!i get to go home at 2 almost everyday! its been long since i ever came home after school in the afternoon, normally i reach home only when the sun sets:( so today when i went home, my mum said my cousin came to swim, so in the end i joined him with my sis and dad. it was amazing how i could still squeeze into my swimming costume and remember how to swim, after like a year or more of not swimming:)ok, i admit, i m a lazy pig who doesnt like to move her ass even though the swimming pool is like right downstairs, shocking. so i spent an hour waddling n playing, n i realised its been a long time since i last exercised if pe and morning jog wasnt counted. i think i better start using the gym n pool since i pay for it (maintenance fees). then i learnt my ting xie n relaxed reading my book:)yes, i unexpectedly walked into the library for half an hour during my free period and emerged with two books. ah, somehow, i cannot stop feeling like i m still on holiday! oh n i went to the rooftop today. it has been a long time since i have been there, but the main side was locked so i only went to the smaller side. it was so still, so quiet, i was kinda scared when the machines started groaning n somehow, i was afraid they would lock the door n i would be trapped there. when i was there alone, i felt a burst of emotions, happiness, freedom, sorrow, excitement but most of all, peace, it was like entering a different world of my own, a world away from others... but i did not dare linger too long as i said earlier, i was afraid they would lock the door. ah, sometimes, i just need a short escape, away from reality, ahhh...

the great food adventure!

2009-06-22T22:48:00.003+08:00

ahh, today was a fairly wonderful day:) went shopping n visited the hokkaido fair at isetan:) there was so much sampling there, sweets, the wonderfully thick n creamy cheese cake, the oh so delicious melt in your mouth caramels:), the crunchy crisp n sweet corn chocolate(i prefer the white one), the sweet perilla juice, the wonderful ramen n to end it all, i had a double cone- green tea n sakura mochi ice cream, ah, it was heaven all right:) then we went to eat pepper lunch n continued to shop, i also managed to drop by muji to buy a few pens (finally after long procastination):) n to top the day off, we had a thai dinner. spicy tom yum soup, aromatic n thick green curry, the all traditional thai mango salad, n thai styled fried kang kong. but i thought that the kang kong tasted like normal stir fried chilli kang kong in chinese restaurants, hmm, its either all the chinese restaurants copied the thais or this thai restaurant tricked me. hmm. n we had two desserts! durian sticky rice- they ran out of mangoes, n red ruby, which was a wonderful thai dessert that i always wanted to try but ended up without, it tasted delicious, like chendol nut with red beady stuff- which tasted crunchy n great:) it was a wonderful day filled with wonderful food, n i m feeling happy happy chirpy chirpy lalalala:) byes. hmm, i wonder why this sounds like a post meant for a food blog.

lunch break:) my fav part of the day

2009-06-12T13:24:00.002+08:00

ha. i m back in smp, n this morning, i fell down:( so now i have to go to the wedding with one swollen elbow n two swollen kneecaps!:( thank goodness i was wearing jeans:) well, li ting said i abuse my legs n they r going to sue me. oh well, first it was the metal flower scratch, now a fall. i must be the clumsiest person on earth! n just now, i met lijia. IN BUONA VISTA. like how random can that get?? well, i m quite used to meeting ppl at weird random places anyway... she looks quite different, n we were staring at each other for a few moments before we smiled. she was going to school, acjc maybe? but she is still super nice, sadly, we didnt get to talk much coz 92 came n i had to go... n no i m not slacking now, its lunch break:) so ya, life is random:) ah, my knees still hurt, sighz, i think i need a magnifying glass to watch out for curbs next time!:) oh ya, n i was just sharing with gen n li ting my motherly instincts ever since i became sl. hmm, n surprisingly, they feel that too:) ah, i gotta go now...to play facebook! hahas, byes:)

:)

2009-06-06T23:41:00.002+08:00

life's great as of now, everything's falling into place:) i feel successful, i had 4 clarinets sent for repair including my own!:) i m so happy!wheee:) anyways, the world is turning horrible, with missing planes and burning buses (china). I hope the victims and their families will feel better! it must be terrible to suddenly lose a loved one, this shows how fragile life is n how we must cherish each moment:) the new house is great:) except for the heat, but i have not gone to swim yet, must try some day:) ah, next week is the start of smp=waking up early:( but at least i have a break on wed where i will get to go full time shopping!!! n scout for clothes for the wedding:) lalalala i gotta go off now, byes!:)

pop is over:(

2009-05-31T23:27:00.003+08:00

ahh! oh no, it all seemed like a dream, but the seniors are gone coz pop is over n i m now OFFICIALLY sl!:O wait, actually, it sounds more like a nightmare. well pop was really quite screwed, but i shant say anything because its supposed to be kept WITHIN the four walls. but the chalet was really really fun n i wonder, why must we only have an ultimate enjoyable experience at pop, when they are leaving? probably i should organise some section outings, but it wont be the same without the blues anymore:( n i realised that i have not shed a single tear yet, i think the reality still hasnt settled in yet, thats why... although the chalet was quite disappointing at first, it became ok after everybody came n we had a great time bitching the whole friday night. then we tried sleeping but to no avail. sat was super fun when we went to sentosa for a "picnic" n it was kinda fun overall but as usual, the aircon just got colder n colder n so i couldnt sleep so i woke up at like 6 n crawled down. then when i went back up after warming up, wei shan was sitting there on the floor n i thought i woke her up coz i accidentally kicked her but she was actually very cold too. so karyn woke up to warm us, then jayme too woke up. in the end, we ended up going to pasir ris park for a walk:) but i am glad i got to talk to the seniors so much, debbie, gwyneth, giok, weishan, jayme n shok ling... oh n wei shan cut up my letter so i have to wait. so far i only got two:( oh n to make things worst, my clarinet died on me. life cannot get any suckier... ahs, i shall just sleep it over now, n forget about everything! nites world

twitter!

2009-05-18T21:56:00.001+08:00

ohh, i just joined twitter, i wonder if it is fun, caused i joined for fun:) i am becoming interested in these new cute little things, blogging, facebook n now, its twitter! everybody, please join twitter cause nobody in my hotmail contact list is on twitter! join twitter! love cheryl and nights:)

sec 3 camp!:)

2009-05-08T17:30:00.002+08:00

ahh, i m finally back from sec 3 camp in one piece!:) i m so happy! camp was really fun, if you minus all the eating, bathing n sleeping parts:) i officially love camps:) i love my class, sec 3 Grace n i love going crazy with all my wonderful classmates:) on the first day, everybody was like we hate camp, we had high elements n i crossed some log suspended in mid air. from the bottom, the log looked fairly big n short but as usual, looks are deceiving, by the time i struggled my way up to the top, i was desperate to jump down! i didnt dare to move a leg, or even let go of my hand, it wasnt that i was afraid of heights, it was just that i couldnt let go, so i stood there for millions of minutes not daring to move an inch n wasting everybody's time:( thank you my whole class, especially huilin n gen, yingtong n liting for cheering for me! because of your cheers, i managed to make it across safely, without falling:) but i think i was still the biggest retard in my class for taking so long to cross one log:)surprisingly, after joan went up n came down, she was like, cheryl i finally noe how you feel up there, which kinda made me feel better coz that assured me that i was not the only one who felt that way:) n minyu was so funny, she said wat kept her going was the thought of studying for test etc, omgoodness! when i was up there, my first thought was i want to jump down now!, where got think of tests?hahas:) the second day was much more fun, we did many class bonding activities, navy seals was fun, abet competitive n filled with betrayal:(, n campfire was kinda fun, however, many classes did the same thing as us, so it was quite demoralizing:( we better make sure that next time, we come up with sth totally original:) going crazy n bitching sessions were fun too:)(thanks huilin!) ah, i kinda miss camp now, minus all the yucky parts but it was tremendous fun being with all my friends 24/7:) finally i would like to shout again, go 3 GRACE! a class so cool and so lovely, ohhhhhhhhh! n we're like g n they r like whoo, n we're like g n they r like whoo, oh my geee!;)

its hard being a leader...

2009-04-30T21:53:00.002+08:00

ahh, in a blink of an eye, all ccas' syf is over n its been almost a month since i have last blog!:O the last time i remembered, i was still in term 2 week 1:)well life has been really busy lately with tests, assignments, homework n more tests! n everything seems to be going down, seems like i wont get to improve 2 points every term after all, worst still wat if i deprove 2 points every term?i think at this rate, by end of sec 4, i will not even qualify for a poly!ah i suck. anyways, i shall quit ranting bout my stupid studies:)today was kinda ok, although danica n ruei ern instead that i was stuck in the past cause i didnt noe dai yang tian was an actor!hello, i dont watch singaporean dramas! pls tag to support me if u dont noe who is dai yang tian:) oh then we had sectionals today coz prawn wasnt here:))))) i love love sectionals, but nowadays, i cant sit there n slack anymore because i had to clap the beat due to incessant naggings from my seniors!:(n i think i did sth really wrong today, i think i inadvertently caused my sectionmate to feel unhappy coz i asked the seniors to teach the whites:(ah i m a horrible person! oh no, i will give up all just to get my friend back, who cares bout that stupid sl post? i want my friend back n i promise never to do anything stupid ever again! i knew i was never cut out to be a leader... so depressed n i dont noe wat 2 do...

NICE SONGS! MUZ HEAR:)

2009-04-08T21:22:00.002+08:00

ahh because of SYF, I am so addicted to several songs now!:) First on my list is TKGS's choice piece- La forza del destino, Verdi's overture, i especially love the running notes for the clarinet:) go hear it in youtube, there are two versions, one by san jose wind symphony, which are filled with lots of middle aged people who can play very well:) although a little slow, but very expressive:) then there is the orchestra version, which is nice too, faster but less expressive:( i personally prefer the wind version cause the winds are really nice:) go hear it, u will get addicted in a second:) TKGS is really pro, playing such a difficult song yet getting gold with honors:o so next on my list is hymn to the infinite sky by Satoshi Yagisawa, its brilliant n so picturesque:) played by nanyang and seriously i think they played very well:) go hear it! n then there is march bou shu also by the same composer which is quite nice as well, but i dont really like macchu picchu by the same guy, well its very good as well but personally, i prefer expressive and emotional songs:) i think koreans and japanese are very good song composers lor, so expressive, song-like n heart rending, remember those wonderful korean drama serials theme songs?:) so thats all for today, off now to find more nice songs:)!

GOLD WITH HONOURS:)

2009-03-31T21:25:00.002+08:00

woohoo! i cant believe they have not admitted me into woodbridge yet:) after we got our results n left the concert hall,(hmm i guess everybody noes our results already right? we got GOLD WITH HONORS!!!!!!),slight distraction there, erhem, chloe commented that we were like a band just let out from the mental hospital, n i m proud to admit that me n chloe were the only sane ones who were too unemotional i guess:) everybody else was either exclaiming in joy, crying tears of joy,etc... n Magdeline was so random, she just bursted out random spurts of omg we got gold with honors:) hahas, the scene was so emotional, it made me feel like we really had just fought a long battle and won:) ahh, but there was this very irritating guy who totally ruined my mood>:( he was like girls can u please shut up n stop cheering for others. like wat the hell we were CHEERING not JEERING! argh, totally spoilt my mood okay, but i shall just forget about him, he is to small n unimportant to be noticed>:( i really still cant believe that syf is over n that we got gold with honors, it was like a really sweet dream:) but i think we deserved it for all our efforts n that during the last minute we gave our all time best:) snsb bravo! we r so going down history!:) sadly there is no trophy, i wanna trophy! sb should go suggest to them for trophies:)

i think i m going wonky>:)

2009-03-28T22:31:00.003+08:00

oops, sorry for the french rubbish, it was my french graded assignment u see:) ignore that:) so life so far was terrible from all the syf pracs, final 3 days, we must jiayou bandits! so ya, i just wanna get syf over n done with, without squeaks:) n recently my e flat has been squeaking non stop, because my reed died or my mouth died, i have no idea, but i better prac more i guess... n on friday, like soooo many of the seniors came back, 12 plus? uncountable! it made me nervous n kinda ashamed for playing so horribly:(, n cheryl liu came back too:) then on saturday came the biggest shock of the day, well it was the only shock of the day of my boring life:), a grey badge clarinettist came back:O like omgoodness, so ancient! that was my first reaction, but chloe insisted it was the wrong word to describe a senior. well, my first reaction is not always that nice, like when amanda cut her bangs, i did sth really mean by saying she looked like a freak which actually is not true, it was just TOO shocking, sorry manda!:( so now, another of my first reactions, ancient, wat a word! so i was like telling my dad that an ancient senior came back to visit and he was like oh, so is she 40 plus? lol, she's is actually only 18+ i guess:) but grey badge just seems too far away from me:) i think she's real nice to come back just to encourage us b4 syf, so far how many clarinet seniors did that, hmm lets count, three, cassandra, cheryl liu, n Tracey the grey badge is no. three, how great! like bout 1/4 of the three badges COMBINED came back:( sighz, i promise i will come back for the next and next next and next next next syf even though i risk being called ancient by my future juniors:) maybe i will even go back till i m 40 plus, THATS real ancient:) so ya, but the blue badges were kinda cold towards her, well, apparently she was quite mean n dont care type, well, i think if she was mean, she wouldnt even bother to come back, so i think there is still a little niceness in her:) i think its all these warm n hilarious things that make me love band so much, even when i m on the brink on madness from syf pracs, hahas, maybe my madness has burned through my brain n is making me love band more n more by the minute:) i m going wonky! so once again jiayou for syf! one more last push before i end up in the mental hospital a day after syf:)

Les moyens d'économiser de l'argent

2009-03-22T14:48:00.005+08:00

Les moyens d'économiser de l'argent

1) N'achetez pas les objets que vous n'avez pas besoin de.

2) Etre prêt un but à économiser de l'argent.

3) Garder une liste de votre frais.

4) Créer un compte d'épargne.

5) Mettre de côté avant vous dépenser.

6) N'emploi pas le carte bleu.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhh!:)

2009-03-05T19:54:00.003+08:00

AHHHHHH! i cant believe i got short listed for the french bordeaux interview!!:) but i shall not be too happy yet, its just the interview, i may not get selected for the trip if i screw the interview!:( my mum received an sms to check the portal n tadah!:) my interview is next monday:) i still cant believe it, its like just this morning shakespeare just told me that many jap ppl didnt get selected? woohoo!:) so now, all i have to do is wait for my interview!! i hope its in english coz my french will screw it!:) so ya... haha, over the moon. n i tricked my dad coz he ganged up with my sister to trick me, hahs, revenge taken:) so haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaapppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppy!:)

some random pics:)

2009-03-01T14:48:00.004+08:00

my mini clarinet:) have not assembled yet but with special phone effects:)

danica n ruei ern looks ghostly:)

hmms..:)

2009-02-28T22:09:00.002+08:00

hmms:) so many things happened but i didnt bother to post, i m really a bad bad blog owner, hahas:) so ok, new report. well, it was life as usual in school, something to brag bout, i got a new e flat clarinet!:) no i m so not slow! i noe i got it like close to a month ago already but today i especially appreciate it coz many ppl said it was cute:) n many ppl gawked at it, n many ppl were like e flat clarinet when i walked past, i think i counted 2:) so yay me! alright, its yay clarinet!:) whats wrong with getting a little honour hmm?:) so next, i think i shall just describe today coz its more than eventful enough. so it began like an ordinary band exchange day, so sad we did not get to mix around, i really wanted to ask the tk girl how to play the e flat:( so i totally screwed up the blending in with ning xuan part coz i sound loud, piercing n out of tune so i felt totally depressed. so i didnt play for that part. then after dinner, i suddenly realised that i had lost my concert file! i was like totally in a state of confusion n i didnt noe wat to do so i ran around like a mad chicken looking for my file, i was so afraid, i almost wanted to cry! now here i would like to give many many thanks to all the ppl who ran around to help me find it, especially XIN LIN, CHLOE, JAYME and all my wonderful section mates:) n in the end christine found it with the trumpets, poof. everything was okay now n i really felt so so relieved!:) but after that my stomach still hurt, partly bcoz of the coke i think, too much gas:) so ya, was feeling so nervous! thank goodness after that everything was ok, lynette even said she cried! i love u lynette, so touched! n ruei ern laughed at me:( she said i looked funny turning to look at ms sia all the time. i was super nervous okay! ahh, lets hope SYF will be okay, i hope we will make the judges cry too:) oh n tk was really really good!:) so jiayou all the bands n clinch the title that u deserve! especially snsb, go(ld) for it!:)

Life on friday

2009-02-07T11:49:00.002+08:00

yesterday's SMP workshop was kinda boring, bout induction and deduction n kinda amusing too, at the start, the prof asked bout wat you can deduce from a picture of a crashed car with a goat sticking out from it n two RI guys started arguing bout whether the ppl in it were harmed or unharmed, coz the doors were open. I couldnt be bothered to answer the questions so i just sat there laughing:) as usual. n then i started smsing danica n she said that cher was talking crap n so, most probably, they didnt have auditions. a girl sitting in front of me was like smsing the whole time with her phone in her hands making no attempt to hide it? so everything was kinda boring, yawn:( when i remember that this is my last free saturday before band, i feel so sad n irritated!! i honestly prefer recess pracs to saturday pracs:( oh n i finally met my new juniors:) they are all quite nice looking, well i hope they r nice, n one of them can even play the clarinet:) hope for snsb:) i still cant believe i m sec 3 already, n my sec 2 juniors are already seniors!:) hahas, life passes so fast:) hmm, gtg now, update more next time:)

YAY!

2009-01-23T22:34:00.004+08:00

Yay!! I have finally successfully managed to upload a photo! i m sorry for being such a klutz but honestly, i m an it idiot so clap! A round of applause for me:) today i got to leave early n skip band n it was real fun, even the smp launch was fun:) well, it made me more motivated now when i hear that there is a chance for me to go to japan or korea!!!! hahas, wat? i M a typical girl:) anyways, it was such a coincidence that i met 3 of my french ex classmates there, 2 rgs n 1 nanyang. I even managed to talk to christabel n she kinda recognized me:) she is real nice:) oh n did i mention that b4 the lecture, some poly ppl came to ask us whether they could sing a bdae song to us? they said it was for their project, n they had it videod!! i think its testing some reaction thingy, maybe, but we just stood there looking dazed. hahas. happy birthday to three of you? gen said we should have asked for our "bdae" present:) n then i went to visit my elder sis n thats where i saw the bird's nest hanging from the flower!! (the flowers are not even real.) after i snapped a photo, my dad went to pull it out. well, he claimed that the bird no longer lived there because of the egg shells left inside. then i went for dinner n the nursery then back home. now i muz really jia you for smp!! (i hope they conduct competitions or conferences in France!)

personal:)

2009-01-15T21:31:00.003+08:00

ahh, finally, i m back updating my beloved blog:) I have long decided to give up many things already, including my clarinet n blog, i cant be bothered to practice extra hard or update anymore, sighz... i m really really happy todae coz finally, the big giant baggage in my heart can be removed!!:) i m not telling wat is it but anyways, its really a huge relief to get it off me finally! Praise the lord!:) n u noe how people often say about a woman's intuition, how accurate it was, just by feeling? i dont noe, but i have this nagging feeling bout sth really personal, n i m not sure if i should clarify it... i think i shall juz wait till the last day i will be seeing this person to confirm n clarify my doubts so there wont be any embarrassment caused:))) how smart can I get?:) haha, juz kidding. ok, so now everything has finally sort of settled down, FINALLY, i m glad i can stop worrying anymore:) i m sorry bout concealing so many secret stuff without telling u all, but u noe, i really dont think it is a good idea letting everybody noe these kind of stuff, bear with it for a little while more wont u, people? maybe 1 day i will explain, when i find a hole big enough for me to fit in n hide forever from embarrassment, lol:) so byes for now!:) love love love cheryl:)

christmas parties:)

2008-12-22T18:27:00.002+08:00

I officially love christmas parties!:) so on sat, i went to my dad's american boss' house which is ENORMOUS! it has a pool table, a table tennis table, a games room for the xbox 360, a swimming pool, n upstairs there's a wii. like woah, u will never get bored in that house:) but the party wasnt really successful, mostly, we just stood around eating our dinner n i was watching my dad play pool. oh n did i mention the grand piano? sighz. ooh n there were three fairly cute american guys, hahas:) juz kidding:) then on sunday, i went to my parents friend's gathering which was unexpectedly fun! so we played sth like a broken tele but using charades. n the dinner was real good, all home cooked with love:) we stayed till bout 12? coz my dad needed to work n we came home exhausted n with a load of christmas presents:)))) cant wait for christmas to open them up!! ahh, how i just love christmas... next stop, chinese new year!

2008-12-17T18:48:00.002+08:00

hi its juz 13 days since i last blogged:) ok, i noe 13 days is a real long time but i m trying to be regular! well, sort of at least. In a blink of an eye, my two weeks holiday from band is OVER, n christmas is just NEXT WEEK! that means the dec hols is almost over!:((((( oh no... so today i went for my spine checkup n i waited 4 bout 1h10min juz to see the doc for 15 min n pay $25. wat an exciting way to start the morning. well, the good news is that i dont have to go back for a year!:) i have officially stopped growing according to the doctor:) but i m still due for an appointment at kk next month for my asthma thingy. sighz... now the clinic seems to be my regular haunt. i have just listed out the major events next year, they are: 1) grade 7 piano prac 2) 10 subjects! 3) SMP (well, if we get it) 4) napfa! (the second thing i hate most in my life next to camps.) 5) NOMs 6) SYF 7) Sec 3 camp 8) Chinese o level 9) move house:)! sighz, really NOT looking forward to next year especially with the change of class plus mep staybacks (i really m not looking forward to wasting my afternoon to hear tham talk crap) plus sat band pracs. so basically 6 days a week is occupied except for sundays which is church day. sometimes, i wish my week was 10 days long! n my dad asked me how i was going to study like that. good question, so i will really start failing everything. but 4 now, i shall juz try my best to enjoy my last days. hahas, that sounds wrong, let me rephrase, my last days of my holidays:) so bye 4 now! c u in bout a months time!:) hahas, i m SO regular :)

hello AGAIN

2008-12-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

oops, my blog is stagnant again! but u cant blame me! for the past few weeks i have been oh so busy, packing for the dreaded genting trip, THE dreaded genting trip, studying for my french exam, clearing mount everest off my table n finally, i get to REST. busy huh? n its supposed to be the HOLIDAYS! ok, so first things first, 1) i got demoted to thirds, which isnt a bad thing, coz that way she cant demote u further, unless she intends to change section or kick me out of band. anything, i cant be bothered with her antics anymore so i shall just be contented here. the only thing that makes this bearable is that i have too wonderful seniors with me n a wonderful junior:) the bad thing is that now i m certified a KLUTZ who doesnt do well in everything:( 2) i m finally 14!!!:) but i had quite an eventful bdae in genting. so eventful, i rather not recount the embarassing moments. 3) my french exam is finally over!:) i juz hope i dont fail 4) i have a new really cool n nice but a little weird chinese tuition teacher!:) she is young n enthusiastic, maybe over enthusiastic, but overall, she's really nice:) ahh, so nothing else much then, hmm, i m starting to like these monthly updates:) ... fly me to paris someone! paris! i m getting a little too bored here that i dont bother to update.

SIGHZ

2008-11-12T11:23:00.002+08:00

ah, yesterday was quite a bad day, i went to see the doc in the morning for my cough and the doctor suspected that I had asthma. My mum said that since young, I have had bronchitis twice and pneumonia once, but I thought asthma only affected small kids? anyways, its only suspect, not confirm so meanwhile, I have to do some inhaler thing twice a day. sighz, so troublesome. I m supposed to see a kk paedotrician soon. So people with asthma supposed to have sensitive skin, sensitive nose and watever whatnot. Does sensitive feelings count then? hahas, but yeah, the doc got all the symptoms right, just have to pray that its just a false alarm and i wont have to use that inhaler thingy anymore! Band was terrible too, so after 2 weeks of not practicing, i totally lost my embrochure and cant hold my breath. and got scolded and kicked out with Gwyneth for the 'solo' part. She insisted that we were playing too softly. well, sorry but thats the loudest i can go, n after that my diaphragm hurted so much, arghh. I have just realised that if one of the two sec 3s dont go, the other will treat me much better, probably bcoz i m the only other person to talk to, but i m glad she doesnt glare at me anymore, n i think she doesnt hate me anymore, think. ahh, Debbie, firsts need you back!! (well, sia might still kick the three of us out but at least there is still more company for consolation!) n silly me forgot tto bring my clarinet back for practice, so i most probably will get scolded AGAIN. sighz, i feel like quitting everything n going back to Australia where i can have fun n am free from band. the other thing nagging me is the genting bunking thing. ahh, i guess i will just have to live through it! lets just hope things turn out for the better soon!

New blog skin!!

2008-11-10T18:48:00.000+08:00

YAY! after months of wanting to change my blog skin, i have finally managed to change it! n all on my own!:) Sooo, I

decided to continue blogging after months coz Danica alerted me that i HAD a blog n it was living in SEPTEMBER.

well, lots of things happened while i didnt blog but its too long a story so i shall just blog about some major events. 1) I have just returned from Australia after 2 weeks! 2) I had a nightmare about not being able to play my clarinet when i came back. In Australia. N danica juz told me that Sia noticed that i was gone. My nightmare seems to be coming true!! arghhh!!! Help!!! 3) i may get clarinet lessons, provided i pass the Cher interview n lastly 4) i m taking both MEP n FRENCH next year!! gtg now so i shall elaborate on this later, byeeesss!

2008-09-14T17:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm, it was a long week, full of practice papers n more practice papers. n Tham came to summon me n fish for a talk bout NOT QUITTING MEP. not until end of next year though... but come to think bout it, there will be many many perks like seeing all my friends during mep lessons, n maybe an mep trip at the end of next year, n an mep jacket. but then i will have no free afternoons to study(i will probably spend them sleeping anyways), stress, n my l1r5 every term will look bad coz mep is my core humans (when it really really sux) n i will have 2 take 10 subjects n get all As if not moe will force me to quit either one anyway. hmm, that means serious contemplating time for me! but i rather forget bout all that n start mugging:( so, one big disadvantage of being in an all girls school since primary is that i feel awkward near boys. french doesnt really count coz there is only a few guys left in my class. tuition is only once a week n i can bear that. cath class is like boys to one side girls to another no matter how much they want us to mix. so there. the closest i've ever been to a guy is sitting next to one during tuition n holding hands with one during prayer in cc2 camp. n there was this LAME sleepover with my mum's friend's son when i was like in primary school n we stayed up all night. dont think sick. we watched jackie chan movies the whole night, lol:) now i really dread jc time, where half the class will be infested with guys. eww. lai sum said that her nightmare was sitting next to a fat guy whom she will eventually have to talk to next year, hahas, i think i better appreciate the all girls life now! :) cheers to girls, the she-roes!

2008-09-06T21:23:00.000+08:00

hmm, its been 23 days since i last blogged! hahas, and the only reason why i m bothering to blog today is because 1) Danica doesnt stop nagging n 2) to thank the ppl who have tagged at my very very very dead blog!:). Firstly, i bet everybody will be blogging, EOYs is coming! ahhh! so there. over with EOYs. n there is camp rock tomorrow:) i watched it halfway on youtube, dont noe if i have time to finish watching it tomorrow though.:((( n recently, i have been getting hunger pangs so often, i wonder if my stomach IS growing, sighz, gonna grow real fat soon with all the food:9 Yesterday, i went to my grandma's house n i visited my old school, tampines PAP:) walking there, i still remembered the fun times, hmm, if i didnt remember wrongly, there was a China girl who taught me how to make a hot air balloon with a rubber band. its funny how i m growing so fast, i dont have time to look back at the past, i really really hope all my wonderful memories will stay with me forever and ever(though i dont think my short term memory loss will help:) i noticed i have a tendency to laugh so frequently, i think i better buy some anti-laughing pills, today, i was trying to suppress my laughter during tuition coz sb said that the potato strip will bloat in distilled water. BLOAT. i know i shouldnt have laughed but i couldnt help it so i was vibrating. i bet ppl must think i m mad, smiling to myself. wats wrong? i love laughing, they say, laughter is the best cure, n i so agree:)))) although actually i m quite pessimistic, but neverminds, life is contradictory:) n life is actually a ticking time bomb so appreciate it:) byes world! sweet memories...

2008-08-13T21:14:00.000+08:00

oops, looks like my blog is near dead! i m here to save it!:) ah, ruei ern is sick, she has abandoned me:( boos, get well soon ruei ern! n french is getting harder by the minute, wait, let me rephrase, EVERYTHING is getting harder by the milisecond! like i so dont understand chem even though ppl says its the easiest science? sighz, n i have to take it next year, boos:(( i wonder how's lynerd's exam, but she so pro, sure can get high high distinction one:) tomorrow's band again. tues was DISGUSTING. REALLY REALLY DISGUSTING. coz i sounded gross n everybody else sounded equally gross, so sia was pissed n kept scolding n making us replay. n i didnt practice today, wonder how i m gonna be slaughtered tomorrow, fried or barbequed. n my throat hurts a little again, its like recently i have been getting sore throats really really often. n that does not help with clarinet blowing. i hope tomorrow will be a better day:( but mep test was so easy, i only got 1 wrong:) but i kinda cheated with may, we were so shouting out the answers! :)) hahas, okays, i better go study for my geog, french, history, maths, science testsssss b4 i fail all:( byes:)

2008-08-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

life is so filled with ironys, first, amanda n danica were the ones crazy over breaking dawn while i just wanted to get something to read, in the end i got the book pre ordered n they did not. then, after the sec 4s left after pop, the seniors whom i was less close to were the ones who actually wave n smiled when they saw me. really, why is life so weird?? or maybe its just me. n now i have a sore throat, urghs, my sore throat normally takes years to heal, sighz :( but at least i m done with tests for now! :) soon it will be week 9, then term 4, then next year, time flies. one week after another juz pass with a blink of an eye... hmm, i think i better treasure my time in sec 2 coz end of this year i will have to make a really tough decision, to quit french or mep, why cant we juz study wat we like without stress or restrictions? gosh, i really do hate making decisions...

2008-07-31T20:50:00.000+08:00

gosh, this has got to be the most unforgettable day in my life so far, i got a new clarinet!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not an old one used by seniors, its a brand new one straight from france!!!:))))))))))))))))))))))))))
n furthermore, the seniors r getting their new PRESTIGES soon so i dont need to feel guilty for having a new clarinet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
but i have to be VERY VERY careful with it now, n yes yes, i m gonna so take a billion years to keep/ set up, haiz... but its all worth it!!!! now i noe why ppl r so ecstatic bout new instrus, hahas. guess i m gonna have sweet dreams forever from now on, but i will miss my old clarinet:((((((((((
byebyes old clari, sobsob. i m so happyyyyyyyyyyyyyy:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))!!

2008-07-26T11:21:00.000+08:00

AHHH! i loveeeeeeeee concerts!!!!!!! mep concert was wonderful! everybody was so pro! its like wow!! i loved the violin solo n the harp one, lai sum n ruei ern kept laughing during the timpani solo which made me laugh too. that was bad, coz i had to seriously cover my mouth to stop myself laughing, once i laugh, the whole hall will be able to hear me. so ya, but it was real good! me, lai sum n ruei ern all decided that this concert was to make us feel inferior. hahas, sad that i wont be able to go again next year:( oh n yesterday's band concert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its super super duper duper good good good! serious, aichi meiden high symphonic band rox!!!!!!!!!!! the first half was an eye opener, how the rich tone blended so perfectly n ahh, i was melting... n super embarassed of course! it was loud but not blasting n they all swayed when they played, together. n their tone! it would take me another million years to achieve that wonderful melodious sound... then, after the intermission, the jap ppl started 2 introduce their pieces! even though we couldnt understand half of wat they were saying, i felt that they were already trying their best:) the mcs were from clarinets:))) so anyway, they performed numerous pieces which involved dancing n singing amongst playing!! like wow! they could even produce such a wonderful sound while swaying! go watch it on youtube! n it was so good, they encored bout 7 times for half an hour! i bet they were all very very tired but we couldnt let them leave so they encored, their conductor was so nice, he obliged us! i really really appreciated their effort for playing for us! it is the most memorable n best concert ever! too bad i have to wait 2 years to go again, trust me, its freakin entertaining n nice, i love aichi meiden band! :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

2008-07-21T20:09:00.000+08:00

whee! i m on a high now, after my piano exam, i feel so relieved n happy:) well, it was ok i guess, except for the occasional screw ups, it was fairly ok. but the examiner is a woman, if she is strict then she will fail me:( i juz wanna pass. mum kept nagging b4 n after the exam, urghz. daddy was real nice, when he fetched me from third lang, yes i was forced to go:(, instead of nagging, he juz asked whether i would pass, when mum started her nagging again, dad helped me:) go daddy! n i got back my french results. madame said it was ok, 74.5/100:) ok, i guess. i wonder why li ting n chloe are so enthu about juniors. i think they r pretty funny n fun:) so tomorrow there's band. n mep concert!! :))) for once i m interested in sth mep related:) cant wait for tomorrow:))) lalalalala, life's a dream. oh n i hope i can still blow a sound out, its been decades since i last touched my precious clarinet.

2008-07-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

Yay, my daddy's back from Korea:) he bought lots of stuff this time, seaweed, kimchi, chocolate of all kinds inckuding kimchi flavor:) it sounds weird but it actually taste quite OK, juz quite spicy, hahas. Well, i got some new notebooks n a pencil case, juz when i was thinking how i should use the notebook, a fantabulous idea suddenly dawned on me!:) i m gonna make everyone i love write in it:) nah, its not gonna be like one of those books where u write wat u like, wat u hate etc. this time, u juz have to write one paragraph of anything in the world, n one paragraph of how u feel about me seriously. then when i grow really really old i will have something to read about my beloved friends:) i hope i remember n pass the book to all my darlings out there! urgh, piano prac is in 3 days time. n i cant play a single thing properly. sighz, next week really sux, with geog, sc, elit, hcl tests all lining up for me... n next week its back to band. surprisingly, this whole week without band, i really really missed it! n without french, i felt quite lost. its like the whole week i could come home n rest so mondays didnt seem like mons n tues didnt seem like tues etc. i think studying has made me gone mad coz whenever i am doing something unrelated to studying, i feel guilty:( but neverminds, slacking is good for me, i love reading, lazing around n watching tv:) still have not got present for mum, ruei ern n li ting:( will try to get it soon! i shall go off now, who noes when i can find time to update, lets try for next year? hahas, kidding, i think after next week should be fine:) if i m feeling happy then i will update tomorrow:) love love love ;)

2008-07-13T17:38:00.000+08:00

finally, i have got out of my emo mood:) thanks so much xinlin, wei shan, chyi fang and all the other ppl who tagged on my blog to cheer me up:) i love you all! anyways, the incident is kind of over, well, i think n hope so :( ... maybe i was just thinking too much into it, reading too much into the issue often make you do silly things n come out with silly results. sorry if i scared anyone! hahas, i am sooooo happy now! NBC is over n we got gold!!!!!! like GOLD!!!!!! n best of all i m no longer depressed/sad/confused/lost/worried etc. haha, its kind of funny actually, that whenever i feel sad n is on the verge of breaking down, i find myself surrounded by many of my wonderful friends supporting me:) now everything is nice and rosy n back to normal, i feel so happy to be able to smile again with true joy in my heart. I thank Thee, Lord, for all the golden hours when frienship met and gave up heart for heart and thought for thought- quoted from R.H. Pastor (or maybe juz ruei ern's wonderful birthday card:) Its a blessing to have you all as my friends!

2008-07-11T21:57:00.001+08:00

it hurts. it really hurts, it hurts so much that no amount of crying helped, i even tried doing it with a scissors. it didnt work, all that cut was some thin red lines but no, it didnt subside, no the pain juz didnt subside. mum heard me n forced the truth out of me, she tried to reason, if she even knew wat i was planning she would have killed me. but the scolding did help, at least it helped me to calm down n not do wat i planned to do. i think i m stupid. why should i do all this because of such a silly reason? n its my fault, i m so useless... people all over the world face bigger setbacks than me, why m i so weak? why? i wrecked my life, i dont even noe why i m crying now, i need answers, i need help, oh lord, please guide me...

2008-07-05T11:45:00.000+08:00

n i thought may was a bad month with napfa n jubilate. ha, i was deceived. july is worse, with piano prac n nbc coming right up!! i bet the next few months will be killers, revising for eoys, so i m trying not to think of it yet. ahh! i m stressed! piano prac is two weeks from now! two weeks! n i m so not prepared!!! n next week is nbc n my ousel is still killing me! its not shrinking, its growing! i hope i will recover by then... n my grades, i need to improve! so i shall TRY not to blog unless i m free. which is like never. urgh. this sux. it better be over soon... :(

finally

2008-06-27T21:51:00.000+08:00

ahh, finally its the last day of the school week so i can sleep late n wake up late!:) french controle was okay, but i think i m still gonna fail it anyways, n i m quite pleased with the new seating arrangement:) although its right at the back, i m sitting with li ting n xin ling:) n i got my clarinet back!!! she gave me back on thursday lor, break record already la, that time i sent for repair, i only got it back 1 month later:) i m soooo happy! i love my clarinet! n today, me n ruei ern tried out the sleeping beauty, like for once! we were actually saying like for a long time ready lor, but like never take initiative to go try it out. so todae i was blasting my clarinet in the mep room juz b4 band. charlene n ying tong were like practicing for mep prac so early? hahas, my standard where got can play clarinet during practical! it was kinda embarrasing though coz all the stringers muz be wondering who is that idiot from band. should i play it for mep show n tell? i think better not, never practice then got all the wrong notes:) juz for fun:):) so i m gonna search more scores for playing, maybe i can find ensemble pieces where we can play together! yays!>.< n i so agree with the prep talk by the top 4 today lor, i hope the band will listen to them n bring snsb to greater heights! we muz jia you!:) ~i love music~ ~i love my clarinet~ ~i love band~

2008-06-24T21:21:00.000+08:00

i m so tired. so tired i feel like giving up. i knew that one day, it would become like this, tiring, exhausting, meaningless life, but at least i tried my best and i promise to carry on. oops, why was i being so emo? juz plain dead, sorry... whenever ppl ask me how i cope, i too wonder how, finally, i found the answer, its juz a matter of trying your best, never ever giving up:) so band was tiring, it really drains all the life in me, not like i had pretty much of a life, but anyways, i quite enjoyed it although its turning me into a living zombie. n now, i m officially in charge of a sec 1. well, i dont mind looking after them but it means greater responsibilities so now, i have to worry for one more person, my brain will soon explode at this rate. n i feel so guilty taking giok's clarinet, juz bcoz mine rolled down the bench n died, mind u, i so didnt touch it ok? my clarinet is alive! it rolled! but i think it hates me, coz its always getting me into trouble, urghs. thank goodness she didnt scream at me. i hope my clarinet comes back soon so i can return giok's hers, when u use a clarinet for long, its not juz a clarinet anymore, its ur personal clarinet so i shouldnt be depriving anybody of their clarinet. n her case with the cute strap her mum sewed for her. ok, now i m feeling worse... ahh but now, french exam's on the top of my worrying list so i better go study! oh n sherrilyn's my new seat partner:) now i got a smarty next to me to help me:)

2008-06-23T21:16:00.000+08:00

today's a bad ant day. not bad hair day, bad ant day. this morning when we practiced majulah, a giant ant started crawling up my leg n biting me, then i couldnt stand it n bent down to sweep it off, thank goodness it was just a practice:) oh n then during sc lesson, a giant ant suddenly crawled to my table, i immediately screamed "zhang di! help me kill it pls!!!", who noes, instead of helping me squash that bug, zhang di started screaming with me, hahas, so i was like ruei ern helppppp! n she immediately took her water bottle n squashed the ant. that was nope no, not enough for master ant killer ruei ern, she even took her water bottle n started rolling the ant, pancake style!:) n yorklyn helped me remove the roti prata ant. ha, we created such a ruckus juz bcoz of a minute ant, i m embarassed:/... so yeah, je détesté insectes:( ooh, speaking about french, class was not 2 bad after all, although it got quite boring, it was still bearable. n i m actually supposed to study for my french exam now, but neverminds, i will leave that for tomorrow, band time:) i hope she doesnt torture us again tomorrow, i m sooo tired, yawns.. okays, i think i better start studying now b4 i fail it, byes world! tata:)

2008-06-23T07:30:00.000+08:00

i m depressed. nobody's linking me! :( , except my lovely darling friends:) thanks, lynette, danica, amanda etc. anyways, tomorrow's school reopen! sighz. i want to sleep late n wake up late!! oh n ever since i shared about my family, i felt like i had given chunks of myself to them so now i feel HOLLOW. argh, i better think twice about telling anyone about it now... gtg get ready for school, byes!
oh n giok, i really do LOVE chocolates:) they r my life:)

chocs

2008-06-20T16:05:00.000+08:00

ooh i had a sudden inspiration to describe ppl i noe as my favorite food- chocolates! enjoy:)
my family
sis- japanese chocs! cute n nice:)
mum- dark choc, once u get used to the bitter taste, all the goodness n love inside:)
dad- swiss chocs, the best chocs in the world!
my frens
danica- honeycomb chocolate, after the sarcastic hardness comes the wonderful sweetness:)
ruei ern- dars chocolate, plain but nice:)
amanda- i couldnt find a glamorous chocolate to describe u so u will juz have to be ritter spot! one of the best chocolates in the world! ;)
lynette- ferrero rocher, the elegant n sophicticated choc, wat else?;)
chyi fang- those nice nice chocs which are also super ex! u r so nice n great:) love ya 4eva!
xin lin- hershey kisses, those coated with candy, sweet n nice:)
chloe- cadbury, plain nice:)
cheryllim- kit kat? forever there 4 u :)
lai sum- all my fav chocs, hahas:)
samantha- hershey's cookies n cream, super nice:)

n all the other peeps that i haven described, its bcoz i ran out of chocolate names, but dont worry, everybody i noe will always be the icing on my cake:)
will update on my outing later, byes! lots of love, cheryl

2008-06-20T13:48:00.000+08:00

i m only posting bout band coz i wanna complain. bleh. since calista left, she seemed to notice me a lot more, heeeeeeeeeelp!! firstly, i CANT play. secondly, my brain is retarded. yeah, so got ridiculed again today lor... sighz, she was like game over, just because i breathed after two bars instead of four la. but nevermind, its my fault that i m a no brainer. oh n todae i made sooo many mistakes, like playing f without f sharp even when i saw the key sig already, i really dont noe wat has gotten into me these days... n i continued playing f without noticing until deb pointed to me!! if calista was there, she would have already murdered me! hahas... n we played el choclo todae, n oh does it suck. especially that first solo part, like ahhh! i cant coordinate my brain and hands so everything came out late or wrong! deb also got lost quite a bit, so i was even more lost coz i got nobody to follow! but one day, i cannot rely on anybody anymore, one day when all the seniors leave... i muz learn to be more independent! but all in all it was fun, n tiring, we were giving each other stares that meant i give up coz this song really sux, omg! hahas... n we had indian dance class meet in the morning, it was quite ok, n now the song is stuck to my head, damn. ahh, i m so tired i think i will go n rest, nites everybody!

2008-06-17T17:49:00.000+08:00

hahas, decided to post about band todae. Ok, so i m now the permanent tuner? Or does she just get a kick from ordering me to play? wateva it is, that means now i cant daydream or stone, have to be more alert! sighz... Anyways, jia you to the juniors! poor madeline was so scared she was trembling so her note was played in vibrato, hahas... i feel like skipping band on thurs, its becoming more n more of a drag, but i cant coz she will kick me out of nbc n i will abandone deb, wont be so mean la... ahh, nothing much to say, will post another time, byes.

2008-06-15T22:32:00.001+08:00

just finished blog reading so i decided to post :) ahh, i so envy amanda's sop 1 outing, it sounded like such a success! our section outing will ALWAYS turn out a failure, no kidding. ok, maybe i m guilty too, by not turning up, but even if i do, its always juz the usual ppl clicking together... maybe our section is juz too big... So if i become SL in the future, which is 99.9999999% impossible, the first thing to do is organise a SUPERB section outing!! :):)!! where everybody will feel like they belong n have FUN. oooh, i juz downloaded some awesome new songs in my ipod, gonna find more songs to download so anybody, pls tag to recommend nice songs, thanks! thats all for today, i really hope i can keep this blog alive when school reopens!

2008-06-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

life is sooooo boring, yawns. n the hols is gonna end soon! sighz... band was fine i guess, except that my conductor SUDDENLY noticed me n picked on me. n she calls me clarinet coz she doesnt remember my name!! clarinet, play this, clarinet play that, like hello, my name is cheryl not clarinet. hahas, but its kinda great that she doesnt noe my name :) at least when she scolds me she will scold me like "clarinet! out!" n then it wont be so embarrassing :) n the two sec 3s have happily abandoned me for their hols, hahas. they seem like they r on shift, deborah went to malaysia this week n when she is back next week, gwyneth is going overseas. i think i m the only idiot in the world who calls her deborah, but seriously, why debbie when ur name is deborah? Might as well call urself debbie, but deborah is more formal, for when u are an adult i think, hmm, i must start thinking of a confirmation name for myself soon. if my middle name starts with P, then my initials will be CPF. If gens middle name starts with S, her initials will be GST, hahas so i better think of sth good... Oh n after band that day, i went swimming with my sis n mum, i guess band has helped improve my stamina but it still didnt help with the stiff legs. i could seriously hear the cracking noises as i swam, bleh. Today i did quite a lot of stuff, at least i managed to drill a bit of french into my brain, n then i went to the airport to fetch my dad from China. The new terminal 3 is HUMONGOUS! but such a long walk through the airport! ahh well, thats about all i did, as i just said, LIFE IS BORING. tomorrow, i m going for a bbq but after that i think i was juz rot somewhere in the house, better get ready some stuff to do there... So not looking forward to next week!! sighz... i want my hols back!! time stole it.

2008-06-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Hmm, i will kick his u noe where so that he will be infertile! Muhahaha (:<

2. What kind of people do you dislike?
Ppl who suck up. n hypocrites.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
In a traditional church! with lots of white n flowers :)

4. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Food n sleep (: i m a pig.

5. What's your ideal lover like?
Someone who understands me. N will always give in to me! yeah...

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone! it will be pretty cool having admirers, hahas.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
erm if the person already likes someone else, i will forget about it. (is that an answer? ah nvrminds...)

8. If the person you secretly like (if there isn't one, just imagine) is already attached, what would you do?
Give up?

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
I think its practically everything except frens, family, good food n sleep.

10. Is there anything that has made you happy these days?
hahas, who else but my wonderful family and friends? n lots of sleep and good food during the hols:)

11. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
Somebody who will earn big bucks:) nah, probably juz an ordinary idiot.

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
My family and friends:)

13. What feeling do you hate the most?
Being alone.

14. Would you rather be single and rich, or married but poor?
Cant i settle for sth in the middle? probably married but poor coz everybody says life's greatest thing is love :)

15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
Pretend to be still asleep n ignore all the wake up calls:)

16. Would you give it all in a relationship?
as amanda said, define "all" ;)

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one who is more handsome, richer, smarter, more humorous n loves me more :)

18. What do you think Heaven is like?
A bed of roses:) everything that i like will be there n everything i dislike will be vanquished!

19. Have you ever found someone so irritating that you want to just throw them into the slime pool?
My sis at times.

20. What would you do if the world was going to die in one day?
Travel round the whole with my family n friends and eat up all the good food:)

The 5 Lucky Babes!
Lai Sum
Ning Xuan
Samantha
Danica (does it count if she had already done it?)
Lynette

2008-06-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

hahas, i m back from another day of shopping! been totally slacking this hols, so gonna die when school reopens! i m so horrible! have not been touching my clarinet for days! i better stop letting the compliments flood my head n start practicing! especially hanukah last part! so gonna die... N i was thinking bout being student conductor, it will be fun but i suck at timing, cant feel the beat, sighz, n anyways, zhang di already said that she wants to be student conductor, so not gonna fight with her so ya. mayb i can be assistant? but i dont want to stand in front of everybody!! so i think i better give up my silly dream. silly me. n why m i thinking of band? i m supposed to hate it! sighz, snsb was gold band in the grey badge year lor, why did the standard drop so much?? maybe its bcoz of ppl who cant play like ME. sighz... when will we restore our former glory??

2008-06-08T21:43:00.000+08:00

Home sweet home! I'm back blog! Just ended church cc2 camp, slept like a pig for 2 hours 45 min, until my sis came to wake me 4 dinner, urgh. So happy n high today! I love the camp, it was more spiritual n the theme was family. Although i have a superb family, this camp still managed to touch me so much! i got lots to blab bout so i will start with the camp then POP:) I thought i will feel like a retard barging in on the second day but thankfully, my friends made me feel NOT like a retard :) So in the morning, i watched them have breakfast n then we had a sharing as a class. My cathecist shared sth really personal which i m not gonna say coz its private. But WOW! i m so surprised that she shared like kind of the same fate as me! like really! n i somehow managed to summon the courage to share MY STORY! :)! i stammered so much coz it was in front of my whole class n i was the first to start sharing! i was afraid that they will think that i m pathetic or retarded but they acted kindly towards it! although i m kinda regretting now, i m glad that they noe me better, wat my cathecists said were true, we were going 2 be together for 4 years, we were going to be frens, not strangers:) (i wonder if danica noes, i have not told her yet coz i m scared she will react badly to it, but ruei ern says she noes, i shall find a time...) but after Jeanette shared, i kinda felt a connection to her, i noe many ppl in the world will experience sth like that but its not like often when u noe someone who shares the same fate as u. Sorry to keep all of u in the dark to wat that fate is, but honestly, its not sth glamorous that someone would like to post for the whole world to see. so ya... in the afternoon, we had such a pleasant surprise! our parents actually wrote us letters! when i read them, i cried n cried like shit! i was truly touched by their love for us! i love my family! cliche as it seems, its really true when ppl say every parent will love their child no matter wat coz i personally experienced it in this camp! most of us were crying buckets when we read the letters :) n when our parents came, i could really feel their constant and radiating love for me:) i will never forget this memorable experience! so thats camp for me:) POP was wonderful too! ok, maybe not that wonderful, seeing how we screwed up when you believe. it sounded like, ok, its so bad, its indescribable. i think the seniors felt disappointed:( i would, actually, i am. but present giving n dinner was fun! we went to pizza hut instead of pasta mania:) I think if i get posts like SL, ASL etc, i will cry. Really! but when i cry, i cant stop, hmm... I m so glad with the choices of SL and ASL in my section! N all the sec 3s in my section got posts! but i really dont want next year to come, it will mean noms, pop n then we will be the oldest, eww, O-L-D old. Peter pan's syndrome for me:) n thanks everybody for the cards n gifts! i really appreciate cards n stuff coz the person who gives them really puts her heart into doing it, i will keep them till i grow really really old:) my life rox of now! random dancing, singing, experiencing GOD, i love life!

2008-06-06T09:32:00.000+08:00

Yays! I got all my prezzies ready! I hope they will like them, spent so long choosing! :) Went to candy empire yesterday n got some chocolates for my section, gonna bring some chocolate from Japan for my frens :) I was so attracted to all the delicious sweets but sadly, everything was like damn expensive! My piggie is officially dry. Sighz, my sis also made me buy her b dae present! but she still owes me my christmas prezzie (i did buy her one last year) so i m saving it for another jodi picoult book soon! My mum also owes me one, which i m gonna save for breaking dawn :) So i m looking forward to new books! Just got new slippers and i bought a myuk pencil box yesterday :) Ok, my mum bought it. But anyways, went to suntec city too n i remember the maths n science trail in sec 1! it was fantabulous! hahas, sweet memories :) So yeah, i can see the blubber on myself, with all the food during the hols, juz had green tea soft ice cream, seafood pasta, subway n raspberry panna cotta yesterday :)! I really love the hols, all my fav stuff, eating n sleeping n slacking, except for the fact that i m so gonna turn into a pig by the time i go back to school! 2 more weeks left, argh, i want more! I gotta go pack my stuff for my church camp! Byes!

2008-06-04T00:30:00.000+08:00

i have been a naughty girl lately, eating all the stuff that the doctor forbids, hahas:) On Monday, went down to orchard to get a haircut, oh i miss my hair! Danica says she does 2 :) So to make up for the grieve, i drank bubbletea, then ice lemon tea, then ate ice cream, yums, but at night, i started wheezing, the doc warned me that if i didnt take care it could develop into asthma, sighz. So i better start restricting myself from all the rubbish! oh n there was this shop, quintessential, it sold lots of really expensive designer bags! I saw this cute little dog pouch from fuzzy couture but it cost $19.90, so tempted! But i really have to save for the prezzies! N why does almost every teenage book contain sick stuff? the twilight series contains lots of kissing/thinking scenes n the latest book that i m reading now, magic lessons, just dawned on the main character doing u noe wat. Gross. hahas, i m reading like NC 16 stuff, ;)! anyways, i have not done much stuff lately, juz slacking around, i better start revising for my french controle which is at the start of term! Argh! n the oral was juz over... Hmm, speaking bout the oral, i still remember how i screwed it up when i forgot how to say cake in french until my teacher pointed at it, n how i retardedly said that i liked chocolate n ice cream thats why i have a chocolate ice cream cake for my b dae. n madame still said Très Bien. She's too nice. hahas,okays, i gotta go, blog next time! :)

yum!

2008-06-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

yays! i gave my stomach a treat today, after starving it during jubilate, i ate chocolate cake to celebrate my sis' b dae n dinner at golden mile, a super nice chicken rice/steamboat eating house! :) burp. anyways, at the complex, i saw a tattoo shop. somehow, i felt interested in it. Not like i will ever get one though, firstly, i've heard that getting a tattoo hurts. And its permanent. I hate permanent stuff coz i will change my mind the next second so yeah, no tattoos for me. but its still pretty cool though, i think i will juz stick to temporary ones :) oh n i m so addicted to magic or madness!:) its super nice! hmm, pop is coming n i have not got the prezzies 4 my seniors, sadly, my piggie's dry from paying 4 all the rubbish, sighz... hope i can get them sth nice! oooh n i m still living in my reverie of jubilate, hahas, gotta snap out of it soon :) okays, i gotta go do my work n stop procrastinating, byes world!

Expectations.

2008-05-31T22:53:00.000+08:00

Expectations. If there was one word i hate, its 'expectations'. Like for heaven's sake stop having high expectations n thinking i m SUPPOSED to play well, be responsible for this n that etc, etc... N i m so damn tired of trying to be NICE, i really feel like saying I QUIT but for the sake of all my super duper nice frens, i wont, i will keep trying, although its failing, i will still go for it...

jubilate gala nite!

2008-05-31T22:48:00.000+08:00

today was superb:)! Time passed really fast n i had so much fun taking pics with the choir girls! the ex 1 faithians class photo was also taken :) hahas, thanks so much everybody for all ur nice little cute gifts n roses! n we played quite well todae too! yays! now i really loveeeeeee jubilate! cant wait 4 next year!

screwed

2008-05-31T09:32:00.000+08:00

Jubilate was screwed. Section supper was a failure, could yesterday get any worse? sighz... i was really hopping mad yesterday, seriously, its like we spent so much time and effort preparing just to screw the ending up like that? somehow, i feel terribly pissed and guilty, I know its not entirely my fault but still, I feel horribly wrong. Lets just hope history doesnt repeat itself so everybody, START COUNTING UR FREAKING BEATS! (oops, sorry for screaming there!) section supper was equally bad, half our section went and in the end, we couldnt find any seats or the restaurant was closed, should have just followed the stupid school bus back...argh... And sadly, we could not find the choir or so girls to take photos with, but i rather not remember this nightmare... overall, i had lots of fun, n good luck everybody for todae! :)
ps: chai, my sis said u screamed for me, hahas, thanks lotz to everybody who supported me in one way or another, love ya lotz!

my toilet

2008-05-30T09:54:00.000+08:00

i decided to post about sth really personal, my toilet. Well, my toilet in my old house used to have no partitions between the bathing area and the sink and i just loved soaking for hours in that warm water, thinking bout the day's happenings. Its just a place where I can sing out of tune songs, cry my heart out n think about the weirdest stuff in the world, hahas... coz its private n my mum cant intrude and my sis cant irritate so I really have the whole place to myself:) fond memories...lol

jubilate tomorrow!

2008-05-29T22:57:00.001+08:00

oh no! tomorrow's jubilate n i still dont feel ready, its just that i dont really like public performances, just hope i dont screw it up! can already feel the butterflies in my stomach...
but with all the encouragement from my wonderful friends, i think i can do it! so i shall cross my fingers, wish me good luck!

birth of my blog!!

2008-05-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

hi world! Cant believe i actually have a blog now after all that procastinating about making one, really really happy!! I would like to thank Samantha Chew for helping me so much and maybe Danica who gave me the idea after she created one! Oh n about the chocolate n cuts thing, dont get me wrong, i m definitely not emo, its just how nice it sounds:) the cuts represents my past while the chocolates are my present n future! i will explain this later on, right now, i just wanna wish my blog a happy b day! Love Cheryl